i can't wait for tomorrow... i'm going to port stephens with constance, derek, and ramesh...
im sure it will definitely be a fantastic weekend gateway...
away from the city, away from stress...
so excited!!!
*thanks constance for organising this*
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
ewan...
i decided to take a 2 minute break and here i am...
i don't know why i'm doing this, but i'm doing it...
been working really silly and crazy... like hell...
i don't understand either...
it's so frustrating...
it's disappointing...
now, i have to go back...
sigh....
i don't know why i'm doing this, but i'm doing it...
been working really silly and crazy... like hell...
i don't understand either...
it's so frustrating...
it's disappointing...
now, i have to go back...
sigh....
Sunday, February 24, 2008
lent
unlike everyone else, i dint write down a list of new year's resolution... cos i wasn't sure that i will be able to live up to the drama... instead, i made a single promise - which i thought (and yes, i know), making that promise is much much more silly that writing down easy to do resolutions...
anyway, the promise was: i will go to mass EVERY sunday and that means, not missing a single sunday...
and boom, i missed mass last sunday... and yes, i was really so guilty - i managed to wake up so early to play badminton and after that made my way to the beach to enjoy the last week of summer and after that? no mass... guilty! guilty! guilty! and i know, there is no acceptable excuse... i din't want to think i was too tired with badminton and the beach, instead i blame it to my disappointment with the church we are currently going to (which i would have written so much praises of in my previous blogs) - then i realised, that was more, much much more, silly and it is!!! let me say what the disappointment is anyway: frank as it is, i'm not so pleased with father x, not personally, just on how he celebrates mass - sometimes he is too in a hurry, which maybe fine, well, i take it back, not really fine, especially during consecration... i don't usually feel the solemnity of the consecration especially compared to how father richard does it before... the consecration is meant to be the most solemn part of the mass and yet, i feel, its just becoming as one of the parts... with that, i really feel disappointed cos i don't feel christ... im there physically but my thoughts are so so so far away and with this, i thought im just beefing up my sin collection (sad to say!)... enough of that, i hope im already forgiven... today, i was again almost tempted not to go to mass... but i guess, the angels won over the diaboliques... i attended mass... and this time, im happy, not very, but at least...
i was happy not because i am now pleased with consecration... i was moved with the homily... moved=guilty! yes, again!
i realised that we are half way through lent and i really haven't done anything... lent is meant to be a time for prayer, fasting and self-denial... so guilty because im doing the exact the opposite... i can say that before the lenten season, i've been doing my part, at least, to be a good christian (besides, we shouldnt be waiting for lent to be good anyway)... but call it the most perfect timing (i know its not an excuse)... the first half the lenten period happens to be my busiest week ever since i moved down under... i know, im presenting an excuse again, which i know is not at all acceptable... let's start with prayer: before i turned seriously busy (busy=coming home at 11pm for 2.5 weeks, excldg weekends), i can't and won't sleep if i don't finish the rosary, seriously!, but since i was going home so tired and late, i can't even get through the first mystery... so bad and im sorry... but its not too late, ill get back again... next is fasting: eversince, im not really a strict observer of the no-meat friday and less food for lent... i asked to be excused given that im so tiny and i guess i cant afford not to eat... instead, i thought giving up coffee and coke, 2 drinks i thought i can't live without and which are much harder to give up than meat or any other food for that matter, will make up... surely, it would... only thing is, i just can't... worst, my intake even increased from 1 cup/1 can to 2 cups/2 cans for those busy weeks, i needed them to have the energy to work... crap, im so bad, i know, and im sorry again.. but then again, its not too late... no coke for the rest of the lenten season... promise! then last self-denial: i was actually trying to save some dollars for something, but, being busy was a good excuse to reward myself with unnecessary things so i've been buying things im not suppose to be buying... well again, its not too late... no shopping of whatever for the reast of the lenten season... promise!!!
i promise to keep my promise!!! so help me God....
what about you? well, if you are like me, so unmindful of lent... its not yet too late, you can still do something....
anyway, the promise was: i will go to mass EVERY sunday and that means, not missing a single sunday...
and boom, i missed mass last sunday... and yes, i was really so guilty - i managed to wake up so early to play badminton and after that made my way to the beach to enjoy the last week of summer and after that? no mass... guilty! guilty! guilty! and i know, there is no acceptable excuse... i din't want to think i was too tired with badminton and the beach, instead i blame it to my disappointment with the church we are currently going to (which i would have written so much praises of in my previous blogs) - then i realised, that was more, much much more, silly and it is!!! let me say what the disappointment is anyway: frank as it is, i'm not so pleased with father x, not personally, just on how he celebrates mass - sometimes he is too in a hurry, which maybe fine, well, i take it back, not really fine, especially during consecration... i don't usually feel the solemnity of the consecration especially compared to how father richard does it before... the consecration is meant to be the most solemn part of the mass and yet, i feel, its just becoming as one of the parts... with that, i really feel disappointed cos i don't feel christ... im there physically but my thoughts are so so so far away and with this, i thought im just beefing up my sin collection (sad to say!)... enough of that, i hope im already forgiven... today, i was again almost tempted not to go to mass... but i guess, the angels won over the diaboliques... i attended mass... and this time, im happy, not very, but at least...
i was happy not because i am now pleased with consecration... i was moved with the homily... moved=guilty! yes, again!
i realised that we are half way through lent and i really haven't done anything... lent is meant to be a time for prayer, fasting and self-denial... so guilty because im doing the exact the opposite... i can say that before the lenten season, i've been doing my part, at least, to be a good christian (besides, we shouldnt be waiting for lent to be good anyway)... but call it the most perfect timing (i know its not an excuse)... the first half the lenten period happens to be my busiest week ever since i moved down under... i know, im presenting an excuse again, which i know is not at all acceptable... let's start with prayer: before i turned seriously busy (busy=coming home at 11pm for 2.5 weeks, excldg weekends), i can't and won't sleep if i don't finish the rosary, seriously!, but since i was going home so tired and late, i can't even get through the first mystery... so bad and im sorry... but its not too late, ill get back again... next is fasting: eversince, im not really a strict observer of the no-meat friday and less food for lent... i asked to be excused given that im so tiny and i guess i cant afford not to eat... instead, i thought giving up coffee and coke, 2 drinks i thought i can't live without and which are much harder to give up than meat or any other food for that matter, will make up... surely, it would... only thing is, i just can't... worst, my intake even increased from 1 cup/1 can to 2 cups/2 cans for those busy weeks, i needed them to have the energy to work... crap, im so bad, i know, and im sorry again.. but then again, its not too late... no coke for the rest of the lenten season... promise! then last self-denial: i was actually trying to save some dollars for something, but, being busy was a good excuse to reward myself with unnecessary things so i've been buying things im not suppose to be buying... well again, its not too late... no shopping of whatever for the reast of the lenten season... promise!!!
i promise to keep my promise!!! so help me God....
what about you? well, if you are like me, so unmindful of lent... its not yet too late, you can still do something....
Sunday, February 17, 2008
others' blogs
i don't claim writing to be my passion.
by that i mean, i really don't consider myself to be a good writer, yes, not all, and its probably obvious too... they say, which i've always believed, that you can never marry numbers and words - you can either be a math wizard or a vocabulary wizard, but not both - unless you are among the genuises...
and yet, here i am trying to pool some words... my interest (still, not passion) on blogging was influenced by rondz who is really so into writing... at first, i din't buy the idea of posting my silly thoughts in the net, then next, i just found myself so into it too... let's just say, its an outlet or more so, an escape...
and so be it...
* * *
truth is, i can talk about so many things as so many things happened during the last three weeks but i don't think they are worth writing down... or, may be yes... well, in summary: the past 3 weeks = busiest weeks ever in sydney (at least, excluding the weekends)! that then is a good excuse for me to take friday off - i declare it my stress leave!
* * *
then i found myself reading other peoople's blog... at first, i felt it was an intrusion of their privacy which i realise to be an absurd thought as the fact that it is in the net, it means, anyone can read it (just as you are reading my entries now =)... i actually felt good reading other people's thoughts... some may be senseless as my other entries but they are definitely outnumbered by the more no nonsense ones... thank you fellow blog addicts...
* * *
i hope to resurrect by next week and by then i will have more sense and hopefully, that would include my blog...
by that i mean, i really don't consider myself to be a good writer, yes, not all, and its probably obvious too... they say, which i've always believed, that you can never marry numbers and words - you can either be a math wizard or a vocabulary wizard, but not both - unless you are among the genuises...
and yet, here i am trying to pool some words... my interest (still, not passion) on blogging was influenced by rondz who is really so into writing... at first, i din't buy the idea of posting my silly thoughts in the net, then next, i just found myself so into it too... let's just say, its an outlet or more so, an escape...
and so be it...
* * *
truth is, i can talk about so many things as so many things happened during the last three weeks but i don't think they are worth writing down... or, may be yes... well, in summary: the past 3 weeks = busiest weeks ever in sydney (at least, excluding the weekends)! that then is a good excuse for me to take friday off - i declare it my stress leave!
* * *
then i found myself reading other peoople's blog... at first, i felt it was an intrusion of their privacy which i realise to be an absurd thought as the fact that it is in the net, it means, anyone can read it (just as you are reading my entries now =)... i actually felt good reading other people's thoughts... some may be senseless as my other entries but they are definitely outnumbered by the more no nonsense ones... thank you fellow blog addicts...
* * *
i hope to resurrect by next week and by then i will have more sense and hopefully, that would include my blog...
definitely, maybe...
indeed, this saturday is a not a single second wasted day...
i started the day cleaning up the house - yes, yes, i can be very oc - mess gives me serious stress, seriously...
then went to the facial clinic to spend some money, not that i have so much to spend, i just have to (aray!)
then off to strike in eq for bowling - it was great as always
* * *
then off to hoyts for definitely, maybe...
the movie is about having a second look at the past to have a second chance at the future...
got these lines from the movie:
"it is not who - its when"
"i don't know and i don't know how to know"
* * *
i also promised not to buy anything but ended up going home with 2 boxes of sandals (oh well!)
tomorrow is badminton day... am lovin' my weekend...
i started the day cleaning up the house - yes, yes, i can be very oc - mess gives me serious stress, seriously...
then went to the facial clinic to spend some money, not that i have so much to spend, i just have to (aray!)
then off to strike in eq for bowling - it was great as always
* * *
then off to hoyts for definitely, maybe...
the movie is about having a second look at the past to have a second chance at the future...
got these lines from the movie:
"it is not who - its when"
"i don't know and i don't know how to know"
* * *
i also promised not to buy anything but ended up going home with 2 boxes of sandals (oh well!)
tomorrow is badminton day... am lovin' my weekend...
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
am i in sydney?
call it silly and i won't disagree
i've been working like a slave since last week
this is seriously a sh*t
* * *
she: what are you doing? are you still doing treasury?
me: well yah, how can i possibly finish my own work, i spend the whole day talking to everyone - answering all their questions on treasury - obviously, i can only start my own work when everyone is gone!
most harassed word in the audit room = treasury
c'mon people, i only have one body, one soul, one brain!!! well, good thing, im a bit talented, i can listen to your questions and write a memo at the same time - how is that?! brilliant, stressful!
i can't wait for this week to end... can i call in sick tomorrow???
* * *
oh, looking forward to march 1/2 for a big getaway
at least, that lessens the stress a bit...
i've been working like a slave since last week
this is seriously a sh*t
* * *
she: what are you doing? are you still doing treasury?
me: well yah, how can i possibly finish my own work, i spend the whole day talking to everyone - answering all their questions on treasury - obviously, i can only start my own work when everyone is gone!
most harassed word in the audit room = treasury
c'mon people, i only have one body, one soul, one brain!!! well, good thing, im a bit talented, i can listen to your questions and write a memo at the same time - how is that?! brilliant, stressful!
i can't wait for this week to end... can i call in sick tomorrow???
* * *
oh, looking forward to march 1/2 for a big getaway
at least, that lessens the stress a bit...
Sunday, February 10, 2008
cold summer
i've been asked more than a couple of times already
what is summer like in sydney
and my responses have been consistent
extremely hot
so hot for oz's to adore the sun
and rush off to the beach
extermely hot,
yes! that was last year!
now, im taking it back.
summer 2008
equals cold summer
equals windy day
equals wet wet wet
* * *
im not lovin' it,
at least, not yet
i still have to go to the beach
would love to lie down in bondi
still hopes to bike in manly
need a reason to buy new sunnies
not in the mood to get wet yet
the list goes on...
wish!
what is summer like in sydney
and my responses have been consistent
extremely hot
so hot for oz's to adore the sun
and rush off to the beach
extermely hot,
yes! that was last year!
now, im taking it back.
summer 2008
equals cold summer
equals windy day
equals wet wet wet
* * *
im not lovin' it,
at least, not yet
i still have to go to the beach
would love to lie down in bondi
still hopes to bike in manly
need a reason to buy new sunnies
not in the mood to get wet yet
the list goes on...
wish!
Saturday, February 9, 2008
just a dream...
it was seriously a very bad dream.
the worst i ever had.
so bad that i cried over it.
i don't want it to happen.
it will not happen.
it was just a dream.
i always say,
THY will be done.
you know what's in my heart.
please.
thank you.
i love my sister so much.
the worst i ever had.
so bad that i cried over it.
i don't want it to happen.
it will not happen.
it was just a dream.
i always say,
THY will be done.
you know what's in my heart.
please.
thank you.
i love my sister so much.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
waterman...
exactly 2 months ago, on my 6th day of my 38-day holiday, i received this text message:
"congratulations, hopefully the new challenge will keep you at ey?!"
the day after, it was followed by an email saying:
"hi angeline, i am very pleased to let you know that you have been promoted to manager. Sure you will appreciate your holidays now!
and today, i (with the other promotees) got a new waterman paris as a present from mike during the dinner celebration at Cowper Wharf with RCIP partners, principals and managers...
* * *
yes, it was indeed flattering, but at the same time, challenging...
part of me is more than happy, another part is worried...
please, i don't want to be stressed...
* * *
special credits goes to: colleen, mike, maribel, yolaine, yvonne, stefan and ralph
a note also goes to all those i've worked with...
can't thank you enough...
* * *
to my familia, this is for you all...
to THEE, thank you and thy will be done...
"congratulations, hopefully the new challenge will keep you at ey?!"
the day after, it was followed by an email saying:
"hi angeline, i am very pleased to let you know that you have been promoted to manager. Sure you will appreciate your holidays now!
and today, i (with the other promotees) got a new waterman paris as a present from mike during the dinner celebration at Cowper Wharf with RCIP partners, principals and managers...
* * *
yes, it was indeed flattering, but at the same time, challenging...
part of me is more than happy, another part is worried...
please, i don't want to be stressed...
* * *
special credits goes to: colleen, mike, maribel, yolaine, yvonne, stefan and ralph
a note also goes to all those i've worked with...
can't thank you enough...
* * *
to my familia, this is for you all...
to THEE, thank you and thy will be done...
Monday, February 4, 2008
hurt @ 3 am
at first, i din't care... wasn't affected at all...
now, it finally hit!
i was hurt,
slight!
* * *
that's just today though,
am sure tomorrow i'll be fine,
next day, it would just then be a dream
yes, was just a dream!
* * *
besides,
i knew it from the start...
Sunday, February 3, 2008
the rain...
i am not a fan of the rain... eversince!
and its pouring so hard today, in the middle of a supposedly heated up oz summer!
it makes me sick,
it makes me miss my family,
it makes me lazy,
it makes me think of unwanted thoughts.
* * *
i wanted to blog, to write down thoughts...
blame the rain, im lazy!
* * *
i went to a party last night, the first non-fil party i ever attended BY MYSELF here in oz...
it was actually great and really superb!
i was so amazed at how these people from all over the world can easily get along
from asians (malay and thai), czech, french, irish, british, spanish, noypi (that's me), oz, indian, etc...
i maybe wrong, but there are just some people who'd rather stick to old mates (like i am for one, sometimes)
guess the "challenge" really is the differences in interests amongst different cultures...
how can you let me jump into a circle of chatters who can talk forever about sports, by the time they're done, id be so drunk listening to what everyone is saying, damn!!!
well, last night, good thing, people were talking more about THE holidays and where everyone went...
it was easy to get in...
looking forward to the next party - i find it a good way to destress - to be around with different people and talk about different things besides work...
and its pouring so hard today, in the middle of a supposedly heated up oz summer!
it makes me sick,
it makes me miss my family,
it makes me lazy,
it makes me think of unwanted thoughts.
* * *
i wanted to blog, to write down thoughts...
blame the rain, im lazy!
* * *
i went to a party last night, the first non-fil party i ever attended BY MYSELF here in oz...
it was actually great and really superb!
i was so amazed at how these people from all over the world can easily get along
from asians (malay and thai), czech, french, irish, british, spanish, noypi (that's me), oz, indian, etc...
i maybe wrong, but there are just some people who'd rather stick to old mates (like i am for one, sometimes)
guess the "challenge" really is the differences in interests amongst different cultures...
how can you let me jump into a circle of chatters who can talk forever about sports, by the time they're done, id be so drunk listening to what everyone is saying, damn!!!
well, last night, good thing, people were talking more about THE holidays and where everyone went...
it was easy to get in...
looking forward to the next party - i find it a good way to destress - to be around with different people and talk about different things besides work...
Saturday, February 2, 2008
poor blog...
for some reason, bigla akong tinamad mag blog...
everytime i turn my laptop on, i get excited then it dies down faster than a kidlat...
ayan, tamad na ulit ako...
next time...
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